Half way there...then a girl!

The 24th marked my half way mark in this pregnancy. Honestly, this pregnancy is sooooo much easier then it was with Aaron. 

Some prego facts this time around:

* only was sick the first trimester. 

* I sometimes forget I am pregnant when she is not kicking cause it has been that easy this time. 

* I have not gained any weight but have lost 4lbs 

* I am not craving anything unhealthy unlike with Aaron. This time around I wand sushi(the cooked kind)

* the worst part is not being able to sleep very well. 

     We are so excited for our little girl to be here. I think I am more excited cause I will have my girl finally!!!! 

Harper I love u so much already and can't wait to hold u!

Summer Recap

This summer we had the wonderful opportunity to go back home for a month to CALIFORNIA. It was wonderful! We were able to see so many of our family and friends. It was great! We were also able to be present for the beautiful blessing of our niece Peyton Noe Vatcher, David and Megan's baby girl. 

This  is mostly going to be a picture up date with a few captions. Sorry for the picture overload.

Pictured above is the first ever Homemade jam that I made with Mom V and Lindy-lu.

 Mamo and I took the kids to the beach! It was so great to be at the beach during good weather.

 Grandma Noe really enjoyed having Aaron around to love on her.

 Miss Cordie was all smiles at DISNEYLAND when we went for 2 beautiful days. Love this little girl!

 We had the opportunity to go to Disneyland with the Davenports! They are truly some of my all time favorite people in the WORLD. It was so fun to get away with them.

 Grandma Julie Had Aaron take swim lesson while there and he was in HEAVEN. This little boy LOVES the water and is not afraid of it. He had fun swimming with Grandma ever after the lessons.

 In n Out---need I say more?

 Seriously, I was so excited to be able to spend time with my best friend. It was not long enough with her.

 Aaron and Ryan had a blast together at the beach and at home. Two peas in the pod. Cars, trucks, and dinosaurs.

 Loving on his one and Only Grandpa

Before I found out I was prego I even got to take a lesson from my sister in law on scuba diving in mom and dads pool. It was so cool! I loved it.

Summer fun in North Carolina.

I love summer time. Now that my boy is getting older and can start really enjoying the pool it is even better.

     He had a blast with uncle Billy and cousin savvy. 

7 year itch

     We have just about hit our 7 year wedding anniversary, unfortunately I was not aware of this so called itch. Well, Monday I experienced it first hand. I sat my husband down and talked to him to tell him that I was unhappy and questioning our marriage. It broke his heart and mine to see his reaction. I couldn't tell him why or what I was wanting but just that I was unhappy. 

     We sat and talked for a long time to figure things out. I talked to my brother and another sister in our ward and found out it wasn't really me. EVERYONE goes through it. Today, we are doing great! We took a trip on Saturday to Nashville, TN with just the two of us. It was. Ice to just rekindle the "us" in our relationship. 

     This last year has been tough and has just taken a toll on us. Michael was so busy with teaching full time, going to school full time for his masters, and being the ward mission leader, that Aaron and I have not seen much of him. We never went to bed together because he had to do his homework and lesson planning and was awake before me to go to work.  

     Today we are in NC visiting with my brother and his beautiful family til Saturday when we go to a wedding here as well. I am so excited because my brother and his beautiful wife of 15 years went through this same thing. They are such a great example of a wonderful marriage.  I am happy to say also that the feeling of wanting out of my marriage is gone. 

     I love my husband so much and love that after this little ordeal we are both working harder at our marriage. We are going to bed together and trying to make sure we have us time. Here's to another 7 years of marriage and many many more after that!

 

Happenings...

Aaron and I have a lot of time together now that we are in Memphis. We get to go to the park, the children's museum, and to play with other kiddos. Aaron has made a special friend with an older redhead who loves him to pieces!!! She has also become a good friend of mine too.

7 months

     It's been seven months. It's was not supposed to take this long. I feel like there is a part of my heart that is just breaking. How can this not be happening? Why is this not happening? How much longer am I going to have to deal with this heart ache and longing before I can say "yes I am pregnant with my second child. We couldn't be happier" instead every month I wait in anticipation and cry when I see that it was not going to be that month. Is it really going to take up to a year for me to get pregnant after that birth control? Am I going to be able to have another one at all? Or is my first kid going to be way older then my next?
     Every month it frustrates me even more cause I see my sister and other teenagers, and others that didn't want to get pregnant or shouldn't be getting pregnant, and they get pregnant on a one night stand and they have the very thing I want and am trying for. It is so hard to see that and not just want to scream at the top of my lungs with the pain that is filling my heart more and more each month.
     Sometimes, it is so hard to hold on to faith when you are praying for something with all your heart and Heavenly Father is just making you wait. He has his reasons and I am sure it will make since when the time comes but for now I can't help but pour my heart out and cry to him every month with one simple question. Why? Why not now? What is going on now or coming up that I can't be pregnant for or have a baby for? I just want answers. But for now I will just continue to ask why? And have faith in my Heavenly Father that he knows what he is doing, but I am still probably going to cry for a while with my monthly disappointment.

Mary Kay.

Recently I signed up for the chance to sell Mary Kay! I have already earned my beautiful pink ice ring and had the chance to make so many great friends that I have so much in common with!!! I even got to do my first before and after make over with my friend Sarah. I am having so much fun so far.